By bedtime, we each had a room to ourselves, which was nice
but wasn’t at all what I was used to; in fact it made me feel a bit
uncomfortable. I haven’t had a room to myself since I lived with
my foster parents, and that wasn’t a memory I wanted to bring
Naturally, I couldn’t sleep, so I decided to go out the back door
and stare at the stars like I did in the old days. My heart jumped
when I noticed L was already out there! I felt so embarrassed
I almost went back inside. I didn’t want him to think I was
following him or anything.
I reconsidered at the last moment when I reopened the door.
I turned my head toward him again and then suddenly I felt this
powerful urge to be with him. But isn’t it a little creepy to just
show up out of nowhere like that in the middle of the night?
I don’t know about this…but then again, I only want to talk
with him. That’s not so bad, is it? It’s completely normal! There’s
nothing stalker-ish about wanting to simply talk to someone,
right? I mean I can’t help it he decides to come out and look at
the stars the same time I do.
“Looks like you thought of the same thing I did,” I said to
him as he turned and smiled.
“I was hoping you’d come join me,” he said, looking back at
the sky. “The Rebecca I know wouldn’t miss a beautiful night
I felt a wave of relief after hearing him say that. I suddenly
felt a lot more comfortable.
“It sure is beautiful,” I said, sitting down beside him.
“So no sitting on a hill this time?” I joked as he humored me.
“Ha ha, nope. This backyard will have to make do for now.”
As we smiled at each other, we turned our eyes back to the
sky. It was freezing out, but we were so used to it. It didn’t bother
us. The freezing air reminded us of the old days.
“So I guess a lot’s about to change in our lives, huh?”
“Oh yes,” he replied calmly, closing his eyes to feel the
“Does it scare you a bit?” I asked as he turned to look at
“As long as I have the two things that brought me this far, it
won’t be that much different to me. It’ll be the same thing just
on a larger scale.
“What are the two things?”
He raised his eyebrows as if he was surprised with my question.
“You mean you don’t already know? The first of course would
be the one in charge of all the miracles that brought us to where
we are today.”
“And the second?” I asked, not taking my eyes off him.
“Our family, of course,” he replied intensely as I suddenly felt
distracted by his heart melting face.
He placed his hand gently around my cheek, locking his eyes
intensely on me.
“You know something, Rebecca? You’re incredibly beautiful.”
As he continued gazing at me with his confident smile, I
suddenly felt the urge to brush my hair with my fingertips. I left
his eyes for a moment, but they quickly found their way back
My eyes became lost in his lustrously tinted green eyes as he
brushed his hand gently down to my chin. I felt my eyes aiming
toward his hair, how I longed to run my hands through it.
“You can touch me if you want,” he whispered softly as my
heart began to race.
Slowly and dramatically, I extended my miniature, trembling
hand to his forehead, and landed there gently; his eyes blinked
softly as I very slowly brushed my fingertips through his hair,
making every second count. Naturally, my face drew closer to
his as our eyes locked into a world of deeper understanding than
My eyes dazzled as I tilted my head; my fingers dug deeper
into his scalp as they made their way down to his right ear. As I
curled my fingers around his ear, I slid them softly to the top of
his forehead, and then with upmost pleasure, I very slowly slid
my fingers down through his eyes, his cheeks, his nose, and his
lips. He closed his eyes as I slowly placed each of my hands on
his left and right ear. Then closing my eyes, I leaned very slowly
to his forehead and then very delicately kissing his forehead like
he was my most treasured possession.
Opening my eyes, I could see his perfect smile unraveling,
like the sun was coming up to light the world. Moving my head
away from his forehead, I could see the satisfaction in his eyes,
and I couldn’t help but light a smile knowing his pleasure was
coming from me.
“Put your hand on my chest,” he whispered softly. “I want you
to feel how fast you’re making my heart race.”
Gently taking my right hand, he slowly guided it to his heart
as I kept it there, feeling the pulses bounce harder and harder and
faster and faster. I lifted my head, closing my eyes and curving
a smile. I dug my fingertips deeper into his chest as I flattered
my mind with the thought of being the one responsible for
manipulating his life force. I was the one who raised his blood
pressure; I was the one who caused his body to heat up and pump
blood faster so it could stand being next to me. I’m the goddess,
dominating the very essence of his body, forcing it to heighten to
its peak in order to survive my presence, The great L, the savior
was trembling before me.
Lowering my head back to his eyes, I suddenly felt this
extremely intense desire to have more control over him. I wanted
to break his confidence and have him lose complete control on
how he feels over me. I wanted to conquer his being and turn him
into my most prized possession.
Yes, that’s right, possession. He is mine and no one else’s…
I will be his first and last. His heart, mind, body, soul, and
spirit are mine to do with as I please and when I please…I shall
claim him as my possession.
I placed my index finger on his lips gently as I slowly
transitioned my hands to his cheeks. I watched his face flush
with fear as I gazed very intensely at his eyes exchanging strict
communication with him that he’s mine, and he has no say in the
matter. The queen has spoken, and she will not be defied!
Watching him gulp from nervousness, I dove right in for the
ultimate spiritual contact. I exchanged my deepest passions and
desires for his being and held there.
Seconds later after the shock, he placed his hands around my
hair and rubbed vigorously as he communicated right back his
irresistible desires for my spirit.
Ignoring our surroundings, we let our spirits run freely,
acting in whatever spontaneous manner they desired. We found
ourselves tackling the ground as we ran our fingers deeper into
our scalps. Our noses rubbed against each other as our lips
brushed gently aside each other. Our breathing became heavier
and heavier, causing us to act more violently toward each other.
Suddenly, I wanted more. I competed against him for control,
and he was catching up to me! I couldn’t let that happen! I had to
get ahead; I had to dominate over his insanely building passion.
As I raised my aggression, he raised his, and we found ourselves
rolling off into the pool!
Nothing could distract us.
Our passion ran so deep that no force in the world was
strong enough to interrupt the world we created for each other.
I didn’t want it to ever end! I wanted him so much! I desired
him so deeply. I couldn’t control myself. His being was just too
irresistible! I feel like I’m losing my mind!
Under the water, out of the water, indoors, outdoors, inside a
volcano, outside into space, nothing could hinder my passions for
him right now. What I was feeling right now wasn’t natural as if
some kind of magical energy was powering my body!
Inside the water, I pictured magic dust floating all around us,
trying to visualize our indescribable passion the best it could, but
it still wouldn’t be accurate enough to display our true desires.
With him matching my aggression, I felt his intense desire
for me as well. I felt his telepathic desire for me so deeply I felt
like I was his most precious achievement, like I was above even
his dreams and passions for music!
If our passions for each other ever became written as a song,
it’d be too beautiful for earthly ears to comprehend. It’d be too
magical for science to expound.
What we’re feeling right now isn’t at all natural, but it’s
definitely real! It’s something too beautiful to see with our
eyes and too difficult to imagine with our minds, but when we
experience it for the first time, we know without a doubt it’s the